Teaser

Sorry about the absentness that's been me lately. I've started working double shifts at my job so my online time has been cut in half. I'll try not to let it happen again.

With this teaser, I'm going to reveal what Gwen, Jay, and Chris do for a living (if you haven't figured it out yet). Welcome to the first fight scene.

A flicker of doubt enter my mind. Something was off here. For the most part, vampires were solitary creatures and very rarely banded together. Something bigger then a casual meal was going on here and I was sure we weren’t going to like it.

As if six against three wasn’t bad enough, two more beings exit the woods. These guys definitely weren’t vampires. For one, their skin was red. For another, they had no shot at passing for human. They had tiny spikes traveling down their arms and their faces were warped, void of anything remotely human. I flipped through my knowledge of demons breeds, like turning the pages in a book. My mind quickly found them.

“Chris,” I spoke quickly yet quietly, “Those are Belthrax demons. Guns won’t kill them, only decapitation will,” As I was speaking, I drew my short sword from it’s sheath, wishing it was my gun.

Without thought or discussion, Jay, Chris, and I formed a circle, each facing a different set of vampires. Jay and I made sure that the two demons were on our sides. For the first time tonight, I not only feared for Chris’ safety, but for mine and Jay’s as well. Usually I was so sure of myself and of Jay but this was far for a usual night.

The vampires and demons were slowly inching closer to us. Just a bit closer. We needed them close so we were still near each other, but not so close that we had no room to maneuver and we were effectively trapped. There. I lunged towards the closest vampire.

End of the year post

I wasn't going to do one of these, but I've been lazy and absent lately so I figured I might as well.

2009 was a mixed year for me. Writing wise and personally.

Even though I'm not quite where I want to be when it comes to writing, I did start working at it more this past year.

I don't like looking back in the past, so instead here are some personal and professional goals for the coming year.

1. Get my own apartment. I'm nineteen years old and still living with my father. Now, that might not seem too bad for some of you, but after living on my own for a year it's really hard living with a parent again.

2. Finish up high school. By this summer, I'm going to be a goddamn high school graduate if it kills me.

3. Finish all three drafts I started in 2009. For VDGP, that shouldn't be too hard. That story still speaks to me the most. College For Witches, on the other hand, needs to be totally ripped apart and redone. TFA is going to need a lot of work as well.

4. Start at least one completely new story.

5. FINISH NANO! Nano has defeated me two years in a row and I won't stand of it again.

6. Read 100 books, which is only 20 more than I read this year. Shouldn't be too hard.

7. I have some fitness and weight goals for next year too but I won't go into detail there.

8. Post on here at least once a week.

I'm sure I have more goals as the year goes on. But even if I just reach a few of these, I'll be damn proud of myself. I hope everyone keeps checking in withe me and hounds me every now and then about these goals. Something about people I've never met before yelling at me motivates me strongly.

Anyone else have some goals for the new year?


Oh yeah. One more goal:




































10. Spend more time looking at hot men, like Jensen Ackles. It just makes my day seem so much brighter.

Oh NaNo.

It's that time of year again. NaNo is just around the corner. And I'm just as, if not more, nervous for this year as I was last year.

Some of you may remember that I didn't win my first year. I'm still okay with that because I still wrote more that month than I ever had before. But this year, I feel even more pressure to win. Now that I've gone through it once, I feel like I should be more prepare.

I think it's safe to say that's not how I feel. At all.

Since NaNo last year, I have learned a few things about myself as a writer. One, I'm not a wing it kind of girl. I always thought I was, but after the fail that CFW turned into and the success that VDGP is turning into, I've been proven wrong. So I've been outlining The Freshman Affair, but there is something missing. The "Magic Feather" as Lori (Between Brothers out now. Read it.((Unless you're like me and are still waiting for the paperback to come out))) and Scarlett have deemed it.

I've got a little more than a week to discover that magic. Keep your fingers crossed for me!

On a side note- My birthday was two days ago. Which still hasn't really hit me. I feel like I just hit 18. What happened to 2009?

To apologize for my absent, I present to you:


Men who could murder your cat and you'd forgive them without hesitation.

Forget about my blatant neglection yet? Not quite? Well this should do it then....
Enjoy. =]

Saying Goodbye to the Past

I made a big decision today. I decided that I was finally ready to let go of the past.

I spent a good deal of time in high school in and out of therapy and treatment centers for depression. My mother had married an emotionally and physical abusive man when I was in 7th grade but it wasn't till 9th that I had no choice but to move in with them. I spent three years in a house where I felt neither wanted nor loved. It weighed down hard on me and affected every aspect of my life.

As most of you know, I'm a writer. So when I was depressed, I would write about it. I have folders full of depressed ramblings, some of it by me and some are just song lyrics. Some of them weren't even about anything important, just me being a teenage girl. I thought I should keep them so I could look back at all the things I had lived through and it would make me feel... better I guess. But now I see them for what they are, just a reminder of a time where I was at my absolute lowest. And that all they would ever do is drag me back down.

So I'm going through all of these notebooks and I'm copying down any little gems that I happened to spew out in hopes I might be able to use them someday. So far, I've found one simple sentence that fits perfectly into VDGP and another that spurred a whole new story idea. I'm excited for what else I'll find.

The rest I'm shredding. My step-dad no longer has a hold on me. I'm ready to say goodbye to feeling sorry for myself and letting the past hold me back.

Goodbye teen angst, hello bright future.

Just a quick update.

Writing wise- I've been doing pretty well.

VDGP is coming along pretty well. It's sitting at 3,000 some words right now and with how busy I've been trying to see people before I go back to Pennsylvania. I'm pretty happy with how it's been going.

CFW has sorta been put on the back burner because I've been feeling sort of stalled on it again. That story just doesn't want to go the way I want it to. I wish I would have outlined it. Outlining has been my friend lately.

TFA is still in the outlining process and I'm still having a little trouble making it come together. I need a little more... something to make it worthwhile and interesting.

Personal wise- I've been having a rough couple days and don't really know how to make it better. So I'm going to go over to my sister's house and play with her amazing puppy and watch this guy-

be way too beautiful and shirtless for most of a movie. Hopefully there will be some ice cream involved. Sounds like a perfect cure to me.

Random Check In

There goes week two of diet and exercise. I did crappy this week. I skipped out on working out for three days. And I went to McDonalds. Twice. Color me ashamed. Buutttt. I'm still down one more pound. Since I was expecting to have gain, can't say I'm not please. That's seven pounds in two weeks. Woo and hoo.

In other news, I've started writing again. I've been so terrified of writing something bad that I stopped writing all together. So that wrapped in with not exercising, let's just say this week was a crabby week for me. Excluding Sunday and Wednesday.

Now I'm not even going to go into everything that happened on Sunday (you probably wouldn't believe me even if I told you), but on Wednesday, Jamie, Kacie, and I went dancing at Stargate. Tons of fun. I forgot how much I missed hanging out with girls. And dancing. I love going dancing.

One last random update before I go pass out, school. Blahhhhh. I'm trying but not doing an amazing job.

(Suprise, suprise)

Life.

So far this month, I wish I could just hide in my room with coffee, my laptop, and music and that's it. It's been really hard trying to juggle real life with writing. My friends and family have been far from helpful when it comes to writing. I've wanted to do nothing but writing since I was a little girl, but all anyone talks about is needing to have a fall back plan. I don't think they realize how much it hurts to hear that. It them basically saying, "Well you don't have a chance at making it so you better have another plan."

Things haven't been great for me lately. I'm still trying to get the hang of living on my owe. I can't seem to get the hang of budgeting and saving money. There's so much I want to do that I just can't afford. Like, join a gym and actually get in good shape again. That's probably the number one thing on the list. But I can't even afford to buy cleaning supplies for my place, much less something like a gym membership.

I guess a plus is I actually like the stuff that I wrote on my NaNo the last two days. It's still not good, but it's less crap than what I've been prone to writing so far.

Another random thing I'm going to throw into this blog is I've been reading Paperback's blog and she had the idea of doing a photo a day for the year 2009. I think that is a really great idea and that I might try and give it a shot as well. I think my camera bit the dust awhile back though, so I might need to get a new one. But if I can get one in time I think I'll defiantly take a swing at it.

That's all.