Panic has set in.

As NaNoWriMo draws closer and closer, the more it hits me; this is a huge commitment. One that I really want to do. But I am so afraid that I am so far from ready. Plus I have to finish all my school stuff by November 18th. Well, Shit. And then there's the getting my wisdom teeth removed. Aka. Amanda writing while she's high on painkillers. Should be an interesting few days.

I've been reading more and more about NaNo in hopes of reassuring myself, but I think it's making the panic worse. Most people have 2,000 word outlines and know exactly what they are doing. I'm going into this basically blind and praying for the best. Hopefully next year will be better. Don't get me wrong, I'm gonna work my ass off to finish this one. But next year I'll know what to expect. And maybe be able to help out with organizing events in my town. There is no way I am going to be able to get through this by myself

Thankfully, I'll have plenty of cigarettes and caffeine and music. Maybe that will be enough

NaNoWriMo

So I'm doing National Novel Writing Month this year. Basically, all November, I have to write a novel from scratch. 50,000 words. Since I've been working on a different story for a very long time now, I think it is going to be really hard to just let that one go for awhile and write a brand new story. It's now two days until it starts, and I just wrote my ideas in my daybook. I think I'm going to write about a witch girl who is just starting college. Do all the things a normal college girl goes through; love, keeping up in class, juggling relationships, then trying throw in some supernatural stuffs; keeping up with her coven, learning new spells, and dealing with this new witch boy that seems to be interested in more than just being friends. I'm hoping it plays out the way it is in my mind, not the way it sounds on paper so far.

Wish me luck.

I really hope I can finish this. It opens me up to being able to be involved next year. I really want to be the liasion for my area but young newbies aren't allowed to. So for now I'm hoping someone will step up and take the job. Next year I'm also going to try to get sponsered and go to the writing dangerously event in San Fransico. I would like to go this year but I didn't learn about this soon enough to plan everything out. I'm getting my wisdom teeth removed. Not great timing. Next year though. Man I hope that works out.

Support through this would be amazing. I know I'm going to need a lot of it. And understanding. I'm probably not going to be too social in the month to come.